Hello

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 21:53:06 GMT

Funny how we go through things and learn something we never expected. We learn what is important to us and learn certain things are not. Time does have a way of changing things..people..attitudes..beliefs.

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 18:56:20 GMT

Many changes..recently I've learned alot about people that I use to deal with on a daily basis. you know things aren't good but you can never imagine what others go through until they let it all out. things have changed and we can't go back to what they were, we must move forward. but i also believe we need to work hard to keep the people who matter to us in our lives. stand by them and be there if they need anything. that is what i will do. anger and many emotions have come out of this. i just hope that the things that mattered to me then and still very much do now that i can hold onto those things.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 14:15:00 GMT

It was good to see you guys the other night. I will miss you all. There was some talk of the old days..that was nice to remember the good times associated with it all. I did get a bit bothered with certain subjects. But that is just because I miss certain things and that is how I deal with it. I would do anything to change certain things and get some things back. But I know you can't undo the past. Maybe I will get to say goodbye at least.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 14:41:37 GMT

Today I do miss it...maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Only a little over a month left...then maybe I wont have days like today.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 20:58:02 GMT

Letting go of something isn't the easiest thing to do, especially if it is a hurt that you need to let go. Change is something we can't fight...we all try and in the end fail. A friend recently asked me how I could go so long without talking to a "friend"...well it isn't easy, but it isn't my choice either.

Letting go of hurts and forgiving is the hardest thing one does...to really forgive and move on. I think I finally did that in my case...maybe now I can move on and not treat every relationship in the future based on the past.

I do have regrets about the recent past and yes I would change somethings but there are some decisions I made and actions I did that I wouldn't change. I can say this...it is very hard knowing that there are people whom you came to care about that you wont see again.

I had a friend ask me why I was leaving the area....I can answer that with one word...Changes. Too many have occured for me to stay. I know I said I have come to terms with it...true..but I don't need to stay around and be reminded of what I have lost.

Some of you reading this wont understand. Those who know me..might understand a little. One day when you get older...I finally admit that I am a little old..then you will see what really is important in life.

I still believe friends ...true friends that is...can get you through anything. Friends will be there for you no matter what..family...well lets just say they can let you down over and over...but they are family so we take them back in the fold like nothing ever happened.

I forgave ....myself first...and others. I hope that if I did people wrong that they can learn to forgive me too. So before I get too old I will start living my life the way I should.

We do go through things in life to make us stronger .... without hurts we wouldn't be who we are.... we need to take the bad and learn from them to become stronger.

For those reading this....I want to say what a pleasure it was getting to know you. I learned alot from you kids...many of you don't give yourself enough credit. Follow your heart....and don't let anyone take you off your path..and most of all take care and keep in touch if you want....I would love that.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 20:56:59 GMT

Updated with this long entry and then LJ was in read only mode..sucks

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 21:35:32 GMT

This post is for SATURDAY JANUARY 22 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILLARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I sent my wishes through your mom, but probably just like your Christmas presents you wont receive the message.

Have a great day with your friends.

I TRIED

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 01:25:13 GMT

Happy New Year to all... a new year and I think I will actually make changes for the good this year. I've learned the hard way that the people whom you think you can trust turn out to be the ones you can't.

One person always has to be right and according to that asshole there isn't two sides to a story just his.

I GOT SOMEONE THAT I CARE ABOUT A CHRISTMAS PRESENT BUT IT WAS NEVER DELIVERED..IF YOU READ THIS I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU AND GOT YOU A GIFT..IT SAT IN AN OFFICE FOR OVER A WEEK...SORRY I MESSED THINGS UP..it's like having family and then being told that you can't see them anymore..it's not fair...if I see you I will give it to you though if you want..you might feel the same as the judge and jury people and if so thats ok ...

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 01:12:21 GMT

someone i care about made a bad choice last year. he thought that everything was going to be ok. well that doesn't appear to be the case now. tomorrow the world as they know it will change forever. lesson learned for me is that things can come back to bite you. i'm tired of all this shitty stuff happening to people when the real bad guys out there go day to day without a scratch on them...

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 20:08:22 GMT

Well I need to give my place up in Kingsland, so I will be homeless. I will still keep my part time job in Brunswick for now..just in case the house in Florida doesn't sell and I can't move north for awhile. So I'm going to bounce from place to place when i am in town. I will be traveling back and forth a lot now though. I would like to see everyone before I leave this place for good though. So if you feel the same way let me know.

yet another one

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 16:42:46 GMT

lived through hurricane charley and hurricane frances, actually left for awhile during frances..and now hurricane ivan..really hate florida now. went to the place i'm thinking of moving too during the last storm.. very nice area i guess. lots of things there..not like camden or even the place in florida. one thing it doesn't have is people that i know..friends...but wait i don't have that in camden any longer either..so maybe the move is the best thing for me to do..i know i've said that moving seemed like the best for some people i care about...and i still do believe that..and i know deep down that moving is the best for me too. sure moving means you miss people..but you meet new people and keep in contact with those who REALLY care about you in the place you leave behind. i know only a few people know me and through these entries i give you my two cents on what i think you are going through. i remember a time when all of you were in my life on almost a daily basis..i miss that..you are a great group of kids...i think back and realize when things started to go down hill ...but we could not stop it..like the hurricanes coming now...a force that even all of us together couldn't stop. i constantly hope and pray for the best for everyone...this past year and a half i have learned alot.. i will move forward wherever that might be and remember the good things from the past year and forget the bad things and hope to make better and happier memories in the days to come... enjoy whatever comes your way...and make decisions that will be the best for you in the future..not just what will make you feel better now....

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 23:43:36 GMT

Looks like another hurricane will hit where I go...2 in a row..what luck. I haven't talked to many of you people. I know that i'm older than most..but I've learned alot from all of you kids. I've tried to talk and see some of you..but I was stopped from doing that...I haven't figured out why...but I am moving on....more than likely leaving camden ..but this time I will cut the ties totally...no working pt anymore if i go. I will miss alot of people if I go...I hope that in my time here that i made a difference to some. things just didn't seem to work out and believe it or not i forgive the people that i put some of the blame on...i do know that i am to blame also..i don't put the blame on one person totally...it has been very hard dealing with everything...i lost more things that meant alot to me in this past year...i don't express my feelings towards people or things very clear...i hope and pray for the best for those that i care about...i think those people know who they are...as ALWAYS I WILL BE HERE FOR ANYONE OF YOU AND IF YOU EVER NEED ANYTHING ..JUST LET ME KNOW

JUST READ

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 23:13:32 GMT

FORGIVENESS - that was the topic at church yesterday. very interesting topic to come back to georgia with. preacher said there is one of three reasons why people can't forgive: PRIDE, JUSTICE, AND REVENGE...i think i qualify for all three. forgiveness is definetly a hard thing to swallow. preacher also said we can forgive but that doesn't mean we have to go back for more abuse...good point.

i know that when i close my mind to those people whom i can't seem to forgive...i am a much happier person. i feel bad for those who just can't close their mind to people who cause them trouble.

i'm thinking of moving..not back to florida either...northwest of here actually. i was thinking about that the other day too...about how my sister and her family are moving and all the people who have expressed such sorrow over them moving. i wish just one person would shed just a small tear about me leaving. again deep down i know that isn't important.

i've learned a lot from you teenagers whom i've had the great opportunity to get to know here in georgia. in the beginning i was like all these teenagers working..aah...but it all worked out for the best. i wish all of you the best of luck...as i have said before if you ever need anything just let me know...

i watched this movie with my niece..13 going on 30..the character could relate to the teenagers in the movie because she actually was one..i'm not one but feel more comfortable communicating with you guys..some adults don't give you guys the credit you deserve. some of you had to grow up to early...and that just wasn't fair. i've gotten to know some of you on a deeper level and i can tell you that i believe that each and everyone of you will go far..and leave the pain behind one day. i think some of you actually realize what kind of support group you have in family and friends.

don't let anyone bring you down..maybe i'm not the best one to give advice on this subject but hey..maybe no one will ever read this entry either.

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 16:10:06 GMT

They say by a certain age you should know what is right and wrong. Real life makes that statement false. I hate the people who are so nice to your face...when they know what they did that day and keep it from you..eventually we/I will find out. and when i do...am i supposed to sit back quietly and not say anything and let yet another lie/theft go again.....

what goes around comes around....yea like i believed that when i was 2...it's not true the fucking losers in life keep doing it over and over...they never learn...they just recruit more people into their lives ..so that these one time good people turn into the evil scum that they associate with

sit back and take it....hmmm...i don't think so anymore..

underestimate me ... last time for some... a few may be surprised......

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 23:23:28 GMT

At what point can you classify yourself as depressed???????????

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 20:46:03 GMT

First of all..I hope you all did ok going back to school and for those who haven't started yet...enjoy the rest of your vacation.

don't drop out of school ...like some people have...let me tell you,continue your education even through college..get that degree. Trust me it will take you far in life.
then you don't have to continue to make the wrong choices and trust the wrong people over and over again.

you might have a fighting chance against all the assholes in life that are constantly trying to stab you in the back along the way.....

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 02:04:43 GMT

IT'S ALL OVER

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 14:05:34 GMT

Everyone seems to have advice for you even when you don't ask. I sit back and watch everyone get hurt sometimes unwillingly by the people they care about. Misunderstandings are a part of the daily grind it seems. We take to heart to much stuff...life is too damn short to stay mad at the people that care. I see all these kids that pull together for one another and it's amazing

Don't let the so called adults of this world bring you down and try to break you. What you go through now will only make you a stronger person in the end

Take the advice you need and want from the people who truly want to help you...

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 14:21:36 GMT

I guess the summer that everyone thought of having isn't going so well. Hate to see people I care about so bummed out. Things have a way of working out for the best but it doesn't seem that way now.

I hope everyone who are making these life changes are doing the right thing for themselves.

New outlook on life...but must keep reminding myself of that.

Many people have come and gone from this place...some are truly missed.

So I guess onward, without a few passengers we would like to have aboard.......

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 21:20:25 GMT

whoever says life gets easier as you get older is full of shit. i think it just gets harder. parents and the people in your life when you are young can really screw you up and it all comes out one day. and always when u arent expecting it too...bam..right in the face a cold harsh reality

advice to all....dont let us adults screw you up..tell us to back off...go away or straight up tell us what we are doing to you and how it makes you feel

life is to short to be mad at people especially the ones you care about...miscommunication is the root of many problems in our lives..............

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 18:54:54 GMT

To the few of you that read this thing. Maybe you can give me some insight on this. Why do people whom you believe you can trust keep things from you. I thought as you get older you don't play those games anymore. How many times can you apologize to people and say that the past is the past and start fresh. I think we all need to be able to leave the past behind and move on. We all need a variety of people in our lives that we can confide in, not everyone can understand something that you are going through, I believe that we need different people to get different views. As for myself, I only wish the best for my friends/family, for their happiness. It doesn't appear that way at times, but it's true.

Change will happen, no matter how hard we try to stop it, we can't. I know we learn from the past and become better, at least I hope, people from it. Change builds character, yea, sounds good anyways.

Some say you need to grow up and be mature. You are young only once, so everyone that is young, live it to the fullest. As you get older, they start to expect things from you. But as I say you are only as old as you feel. So feel young, and be happy. Be someone that anyone, no matter the age can come to knowing that you will have an ear to bend and some kinds words to say.

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 20:01:49 GMT

Life is like a sinking ship. We must learn how to take the life boat when it comes for us. Staying believing that we can make it is the biggest joke ever. There are people who are there saying that we can make it. However, they are just using you to stay afloat as long as they can, then when they are safe they use you to get on their own boat and leave you sinking. No consideration for others. Oh they say what goes around comes around..that is the biggest line of bullshit I've ever heard..don't ever fall for that line.

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 15:32:31 GMT

tax season is over, does that mean I am back....hell yeah. will that bother people...sure will. i am starting to push back and people will not like me much. i have been pushed around and used long enough. i'm tired of trying to keep everyone happy when i have to get permission for things. i want to thank everyone for sticking in during some pretty rough times. will things be smooth sailing.....NO but we can have fun anyway. just know that i am working to make things better...it just takes time

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 02:37:02 GMT

I think today ended up being a day that everyone realized how everyone was feeling. Like I've been saying just speak and let it all out and let the cards fall as they do. Things will work out in the end, it might be rough at times.

Everyone has played an important part in keeping things running at work. We all appreciate everything you guys have done. Sometimes we take on more than we can handle, or the things that we are doing turn out to be more than expected.

The next couple of months are very important for the business as well as personally. So I'm going to try and not stress out and just get used to everything and get it done. I guess sleep after that, or as BON JOVI would say Sleep when I'm Dead, for those of you who aren't BON JOVI fans that is a song.

We all need to enjoy life and not dwell on the things that aren't so great but focus on the things that are!!!!!

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 15:01:37 GMT

I have this account because Brandon and Lacey thought I needed it. You 2 have helped out tremendously these past couple of weeks. I just want to say thank you again. Things always seem so hectic at work and people come across in a negative way. Just know that EVERYONE that works there is appreciated. I know we are old people to you but we do understand. If you have a problem don't think it is a wrong time to discuss it. We can work through anything.

This is a new year so let us all leave the bad shit behind and begin fresh. Any objections to that.

Things that are said at work when "bosses" aren't there will remain at work, I talked to the little birdie that chirps a lot. She is just trying to help out and make sure things are going to run smooth. I told her I only need to know the very important things. I hope everyone is ok with that.

I actually do understand that accidents and mistakes do happen, so don't be afraid to let me know things.

Good bye for now losers!!!!!!!